ON A JOB!!!!!!

For even when we were with you, we gave you this rule: "If a man will not work, he shall not Eat." 2 THESSALONIANS 3:10


My political statement for the day. This verse should be stensiled on the wall of the food stamp office. I am doing really well today, I went on a job Thursday and as usual the job got postponed until this morning. Last night I took the 4 employees out to dinner and we discussed God and how he is instrumental in my life and recovery from cancer. I could tell that one of the guys was not saved and he listened the hardest. I hope I made a difference in his life. When ever I tell someone I have cancer I get two different expressions, the first is of concern, I believe this is the believer in Christ response. The second is of pitty, their thought is my life may be over, instead of my life in heaven starting. I pray for these people to find God. I have chemo on Tuesday, God willing and my blood count is good. I am planning on playing golf tomorrow, and going to my old church on Sunday. It is suppose to rain on Sunday. God bless everyone.

NEW LIFE

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. 1st PETER 1:3

Just a note it has been brought to my attention to correct yesterdays blog. The picture was taken at the Catholic Basilica in San Juan, TX, I have already corrected it and appologize for the error. I am feeling good today, but I was feeling good yesterday morning and by 4:00 I was feeling bad and had a headache. Asprin did not work, a long hot shower seemed to fix the headache. I took the pictures of the new born calf and colt, it is amazing how there faces are so cute while and adult just looks like food. Today it is 30 degrees, it will be 60 this afternoon. I am glad I did not have my chemo Tuesday, I would be really hurting from the cold. I wish everyone a good day, and God bless!

COOL DAY

Jesus called out with a loud voice, "Father, into your hands I commit my spirit." When he had said this, he breathed his last. LUKE 23:46

Sorry, I did not update yesterday. I was tired and took a well needed nap. I went to chemo and was all hooked up, when the nurse told me my white cell count was to low for them to administer chemo. I will go back next Monday for blood work and then chemo Tuesday if all blood tests are good. Other then that I am doing well, little tired, and nausea I was not expecting until after chemo. I think this may be nerves, anticipating the 2 days carrying around my pump (child I never wanted). The picture above was taken at the Catholic Bascilica in San Juan Texas, at the 12 stations of the cross. If you get a chance to see it is very nice. Nothing else to report today, God is with me and keeping me safe. God bless!

FRIENDS WHO COMFORT

Shout for joy, O heavens; rejoice, O earth; burst into song, O mountains! For the Lord comforts his people and will have compassion on his afflicted ones. ISAIAH 49:13

I had an excellent visit with my parents, this weekend. The job I was suppose to go on was delayed until Monday, so I got to spend the entire weekend visiting. I am doing worse today, my stomach cramps are getting more intense. I hope it is just the hernia in my stomach and not something more serious. Once in a while I get a cramp around the area where the Colon cancer would be. This one makes me happy, I know its the tumor fighting back, and it will loose. I would like everyone to know, your support for me and my family is very appreciated. Comfort does not cost anything, yet it's return is worth more then gold. I have my 6th chemo treatment tomorrow. I will update my blog while I am there, it gives me something to do, it is boring setting there for 4 hours. I love each and everyone who reads this blog for your support and comfort. God bless!

GUESS WHERE I AM?

Then he said, "Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom." Jesus answered him, "Itell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise." LUKE 23:42-43


I am visiting my Mother and Father at Bit-O-Heaven, My parent's paradise on earth. I am feeling decent again today, except for a dry cough, that really hurts my chest when I cough. have a job to go on in Edinburg, TX, the job is about 70 miles from here. The job is suppose to be Saturday, we will see. I hope it does not go until Monday, as I have chemo on Tuesday. I am not sure how much time I will get to spend with my parents, but every second is precious. I love you all, keep up the prayers. God bless!

SUNRISE

But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go out and leap like calves released from the stall. MALACHI 4:2

Sorry, I did not update yesterday. I recieved a log to process Tuesday evening. I worked on it all night until 2:00 p.m. yesterday afternoon. I then went home and slept until 6 a.m. this morning. I am feeling decent, boughts of nausea, constipation, and a running nose I have had for about a month now. All to be expected. I took this picture of the sunrise through the fog, this morning. I hope everyone has a blessed day and God keeps watch over you. God bless!

INAUGURATION DAY

We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If it is leadership, let him govern diligently. Taken from parts of ROMANS 12:6 & 8



Hows everyone going to day? I am feeling much better my mouth sore broke about 3:30 p.m. Yesterday and I got to eat dinner. Last night I slept hard, after not sleeping well the night before. I got up this morning early and had a bowl of cereal. The man taking the oath of office today may not be my choice, but I know at the end of the oath he will say the words "So help me God!". I am excited to see how God works his will in this country over the next 4 years. Well enough about that. I love and pray for everyone that visits this blog, and am looking forward to giving everyone better news in the future. God bless.

GOOD MORNING

A horse is a vain hope for deliverance; despite all its great strength it cannot save. But the eyes of the Lord are on those that fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine.
PSALM 33:17-19

Well, everything was decent this weekend, I layed on the couch and naped on and off all day Saturday. Jan say's I deserve a day of Vegging once in a while. On Sunday I started the day laying on the couch again, I decided no matter how I felt, I did not feel bad enough to lay on the couch again. I went to play golf, Jan came with me and drove the cart. It did us both some good to get out and get some fresh air. I wish I had taken the camera, I had a beautiful pose on my drives, and there were squirrels running around. Today I have several side effects from the chemo, the worst is a mouth sore, it will keep me from eating today and maybe tomorrow. I like to say I am on the Chemo diet, I don't suggest it to anyone, but it does work. I know weigh below 220 for the first time in 15 years. God bless everyone and keep up the prayers they are working.

ROUGH DAY (yesterday)

Moses and the burning bush, I am sorry I could not duplicate Gods feet of burning a bush without consuming it. A picture of my new fire pit will have to do.

Moses said to God, "Suppose I go to the Isrealites and say to them, 'The God of your fathers has sent me to you,' and they ask me, 'What is his name?' Then what shall I tell them?" God said to Moses, "I AM WHO I AM. This is what you are to say to the Isrealites: 'I AM has sent me to you.'" God also said to Moses, "Say to the Isrealites, 'The Lord the God of your fathers -- the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob -- has sent me to you.' This is my name forever, the name by which I am to be remembered from generation to generation. EXODUS 3:13-15

I am sorry I did not get an update loaded yesterday. I got up yesterday morning and was feeling upset to my stomach. I took a pill, with little relief. I took my friend Jan to a day surgery for implants from her double masectomy. I took another pill about 10 a.m. still no great help. When Jan got out of surgery, at around 1 p.m. I had to go to my doctors office to get my chemo bag removed. On the way home stopped to get her Rx filled, took Jan home and got her comfortable, then went to get Rx. I got back home around 3 p.m.. I laid down on the bed and fell fast asleep. When I woke up at 7 p.m. I stayed awake until 9 p.m. so I could empty and measure Jans drain tubes. I went to bed and slept the night, only woke up twice to go to bathroom, chemo really makes you go to the bathroom. Today I am feeling better, God has a great sense of humor, and loves all of us.

GOOD DAY UPDATE

For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. JOHN 3:17 (NIV)

I had a great day, I had more energy today then I have had in weeks. The only problem is the chemo pump I have to carry for 2 days (pictures attached). I look good with a purse, don't you think (HA-HA). The pump gives me additional chemo medicine at a slow rate over 48 hours. A total of 250 ml. Sometimes I don't even realize I am attached to the bag, other times it is like having a small child you would rather leave at home. Last night my child kicked me in the middle of the night, I can only roll over two times before the bag hits me in the back. Yesterday, I updated my blog while I was in the chemo lab being treated. If you read it you will remember I sold $22.00 of change to a convience store, On the way home I stopped to get some groceries for dinner. When I was leaving the store there was a man collecting food for the local food bank, I donated the $22.00, he said for every dollar that is donated buys $6.00 worth of food, when they buy in bulk. I do not tell you this to blow my horn, instead I tell you this to illistrate the power of god's plan. If I had not sold the $22.00 in change I would not have been able to donate it. God is amazing in all that he does. I will update late tomorrow, my friend jan is going in for day surgery and I am having pump removed at 11:30 a.m.. Until tomorrow, God bless!

CHEMOTHERAPY DAY

There are different kinds of gifts, but the same spirit. There are different kinds of service, but the same Lord. There are different kinds of working, but the same God works all of them in all men. Now to each one the manifestation of the Spirit is given for the common good. To one there is given through the Spirit the message of wisdom, to another the message of knowledge by means of the same Spirit, to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by that one Spirit, to another miraculous powers, to another prophecy, to another distinguishing between spirits, to another speaking in different kinds of tongues, and to still another the interpretation of tongues. All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he gives them to each one, just as he determines. 1 CORINTHIANS 12:4-11 (NIV)

Today, is Chemo day. I know it sounds funny, but I look forward to it. I really enjoy all the people that have been created by God to be here to heal me. The picture above is of me all hooked up and getting pumped full of chemicals I can't even pronounce. I have always said "I place my Chemo in the doctors hands, and My life was already in Gods hands." I am on cruise control, just enjoying the ride. I feel pretty good today, minor side effects, sweating, trouble getting out of bed. I believe everything happens for a reason and it is all God's plan no matter how small it may seem. This morning I had plans to eat breakfast at the Waffle House, but when I got there the parking lot was full. I decided to go further down towards my doctors office to find a place to eat. The only fast food place had a large M on the building and I don't eat there, so I continued down the road and decided to just get donuts, and chocolate milk. When I went to checkout there was a sign requesting quarters and dimes. I had a large bag of spare change in my truck, after checking out I came back in the store and sold $22.00 in quarters and dimes. I made the clerk behind the counters job easier, you could tell she being stressed by not being able to make change. God has blessed me with the desire to return and help someone out, even though it is always easier, to leave and forget the problems of others. I hope God has blessed this day for you, as he has for me. Until tomorrow.

The Lord watches over you - the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. Psalm 121:5-6

What a beautiful day, be thankful and praise the lord for it. I feel pretty good this morning had a little problem getting out of bed, the snooze may be an invention of the devil (HA-HA!!!!!!). Whan I went outside this morning the moon was still high in the western sky, I could not resist taking the picture. I think God is directing me through the amazing miracles I take pictures of. I then like to find a verse that applies to the picture. This week is chemo week, oh boy! I will have to carry a small hand bag (purse) with a pump that gives me 250 ml of chemo medicine over 2 days. It is like having a new born child, you have to make sure it is secure in the seat, set it in the basket at grocery store and don't get more then 4 feet away. I guess this is a small part of the cross I am supose to carry, and I will carry it proudly. God bless you and your families.

Guilt

I have been feeling guilty lately, I have read so many web sites, and blogs of other people with cancer, and all seem to be so hardly effected by chemo and radiation. I feel as if I don't even have the right to say I have a life threatening disease. I have all the classic symptoms of chemo: nausea, diarrhea, mouth sores, night sweats, boughts of being tired, and sensitivity to cold. The sensitivity to cold is very wierd, when ever I pick up something cold for a week after chemo it feels like my hand is being pricked by a thousand needles. Before starting chemo I was severly anemic, since the chemo started my red blood cell count has gone up and I actually feel better now. I pray to God to help me eliminate my feelings of guilt as I know they are a distraction from his plan for me. I believe he allows me to feel better so I can update this blog and go to church, work, mall, grocery store, and meet the people I am to be ministering to through my cancer. I thank God for everyone's support and prayers. I do not wish for anyone to respond to this update I simply needed a good place to type what I have been feeling. My Aunt Helen has kept a diary for as long as I can remember and I hope she still does, because writing or typing down your thoughts and feelings can be very good theropy. God bless all my family and friends.

P.S. I have received so many e-mails and e cards from everyone I am sorry I have not had time to respond.

Doctors appointment

She said to herself, "If I only touch his clock, I will be healed." Jesus turned and saw her. "Take heart, daughter," he said, "your faith has healed you." And the woman was healed from that moment. Matthew 9:21-22

I had my doctors appointment today, also blood work. I have good news to report, the CT scan indicates all tumors have decreased in size from 10 to 30 percent. I have given thanks to the Lord for his healing power. My blood work looks good, in fact my blood count is up to 11.4 from 9.2 before chemo. My next chemotheropy is Tuesday. The doctor is very positive in the results of the chemo and CT scans. I have a great big prayer support group, there are people all over the U.S. praying for me, I am not surprised God is doing his will. I still have a long road to follow and it is narrow, please keep praying for me, as I pray for each and everyone I know. Thanks again! Keep God first and everything else will take care of itself.

QUICK UPDATE

Sorry, I forgot to mention my appointment is not until 3:00 tomorrow. I will update the blog tomorrow evening. God bless!

I would like to pass on one of my favorite passages in the bible from my favorite books (the book of job). Just a little back ground, the lord has allowed satan to destroy all job has to prove to the lord that job loves him for what he has given him, instead of a true love. Satan destroys or removes his 10 children, sheep,camel, oxen, donkeys, and servents. Job's response is to tear his robe, and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship and said:

"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised." Job 1:21 (NIV)


I have received a lot of e-mails over the last couple of day's and I thank everyone for support and PRAYER'S. I hope this blog will keep everyone informed of my condition. All days are glorious when you have the lord in your life, however the side effects of chemo are still present. I have a little diarhea, and stomach cramps this morning, other then that I feel strong. I am continuing to go to work, even though my boss has limited my driving and does not want me going to locations to do jobs. I have told several people that I am not living like I am dying, insteed I am living like I am living. This helps me keep my perspective on what is important, god, family, and friends, not lavish vacations, or crazy stunts. I love each and everyone of you! God bless and keep you safe.

A GREAT DAY!

"I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven." MATTHEW 18:3-4 (NIV)

I am having a great day, no doctors appointments. My next appointment is for blood work on Friday. I should have some idea how the CT scan went. The picture is Jan's grand daughter (up late on new years eve). Sorry, I don't have much to report today. God bless this day and all my friends.

CT Scan Day

Hello friends! Today I had my third CT scan. They are being used to see if the chemotheropy is shrinking the tumors. I am not sure when I will get the results, but you'll be the second to know. I have completed four chemo treatments, and am not sure how many total I will have to have. The CT scan went well except for the enima they give me it is embarassing. I am feeling really well today the only side effects I am having is minor stomach pains, runny nose, and good looks (HA-HA). I recieved a digital camera for CHRISTmas, so you will probably get at least 1 picture with every blog posting. I love each and everyone that visits this blog and thank you in advance for your prayers. GOD will work miracles through others hands and/or prayers. God bless the world!

5 Jan 09

My first update is to get everyone up to speed. A young lady ran a stoplight and hit my truck, There were no injuries (thank GOD). My boss insisted I have a physical before releasing the insurance company. The physical revealed my red blood cell count was low (enemic). I was refered for a CT scan to determine where I was bleeding from. The results of the scan was a tumor in my Colon, Spots on my Liver. I was refered to a Gastro Intestinal specialist for a Colonoscopy (oh joy). The results were the tumor was to large to remove and it was cancerous (the big "C"). I was referred to a onocologist at M.D. Anderson Cancer Center in Houston (the best in the United States maybe the world, where do I get a second opinion HA-HA). My doctor, Dr. Hussan informed me that there is too much cancer to make operating an option. I have cancer of the wall of my stomach cavity, along with the Colon and Liver. The initial shock was devastating, after getting control of my thoughts, I realized that GOD is in control. I believe that everything that happens is planned by GOD to be used for his glory. I have placed my chemotheropy in my doctor's hands, My life was already in GOD's hands. The only thing I require is as many people praying for me as possible. If it is GOD's will he can cure my cancer through the doctor or your prayers, if it is his will that I go to Heaven, I am ready. I know we all have a GOD driven purpose in our lives, I hope this blog will help me to enrich each and everyone's life that reads it. GOD BLESS!